Enough

Today I'm 50 years and 4 months old. No special milestone, but for some reason, I felt like noting it. I feel a little wiser today, as if I've learned something. What I did today was let go just a little bit more.

I was given an assignment at 6:42 AM. I was to report to my post at 7:00 AM. No way was I going to make it. I didn't make it and the world didn't end. I didn't run traffic lights, I didn't break a sweat. I did what I could and it was enough.

I watched as a cap was placed on a deep-water gusher. It might work and it might not. I hope it does. That's enough for now.

I got word that a major piece of legislation passed, split almost entirely down party lines. No surprises there. I live in the reddest of red states. Nothing I could have done to change votes here. I can (and did) work a little on a campaign event that I think will make a difference locally.

I didn't hear from one friend, but I heard from many others. I've done all I can as far as this friendship goes. Rifts occur and some things are out of my hands. I have a rich, full social life that goes beyond dinners and movies. I can count on those who count.

I came home from work and kicked off my shoes and for just a moment imagined that I was standing on a beach with cool water rushing around my ankles. I felt free, more free than I've felt in weeks. Perhaps a vacation to a beach is in order soon. Nothing rushed, nothing planned. That would be enough.