Looking Into the Future

I know horoscopes are, as my Grandmother used to say, a bunch of hooey. But sometimes, when I'm just not quite sure what's going on around me, I'll check out the forecast for Pisces and see if it's applicable to my current situation. It usually is. I know. I know. I can twist anything to fit. But at least it's another way for me to view my circumstances, another angle. And so it goes with tomorrow's words:

Negotiate relationships between coworkers today, and you will earn major points.

I can approach this about a dozen different ways. I need to approach this in at least three or four. Tomorrow should be interesting. I look forward to it. I really do.

Edited to add: After posting this I started thinking about my day...and a conversation I had with a colleague about what we (she and I) see almost every day. It's tough. We don't admit that to too many people. I remembered a blog entry from awhile back. And I realized that I had literally shoved a very tough day right to the back of my mind. Today was not good. Today was bad. And I left work, got busy with errands, and then cleaned my apartment for a couple hours. What was I cleaning, anyway? Perhaps I was cleaning away my day. I don't know. Anyway. I think one reason I blog is to get this stuff out. So here it is. From today and from some yesterdays ago. I think it helps me.

Burn on, don't burn out.
5/4/2007 6:13:14 PM
Today brought a relentless procession of "not good".
Sad. Tragic.
Oh. My. God. Don't. Make. Me. Consider. That.
They just kept coming.
I can handle one or two a day. I can handle three, sort of.
But seven-thirty to three, with only a couple of breaks to run to the bathroom, Too much to handle. At least not on a regular basis. Good thing I don't have to. This is not the norm.
And all I wanted to do was get out of there and get into me. But I'm not quite me yet. And I had some of me chipped away today. Rather, I think I gave some of me away. They seemed to need it/her/me more than I did.
*sigh*
I want to do what is right for me. I want to take a bit. But that seems to be too much (to ask) at this very moment in time. Here's the thing. I wonder if this isn't just an easy way (to be sad) sometimes. An easy out. For those of us who are in it up to our necks. Seems I could admit to the other things that are eating at me...but I don't have to, if I have this. This sadness. So again... I want to do what is right for me. I want to take a bit. But just what is too much for this moment in time? For what do I ask and from whom?