More miles, more music. I wonder at the way it all lines up. They give me their presents and I admit to envy of the genius of putting words to tone and rhythm, of putting beat next to perfect sentiment. Is the order of delivery through wire and neuron, axon and memory coincidence or is it planned? I wonder. I should. I must.
Sting: Inside“Love is a violation, a mutilation, capitulation. Love is annihilation.”
I don’t usually step onto the trail and break into a sprint. Today I did. I wasn’t warm. I was cold. It didn’t matter. It was 9:45 in the morning and it was already 80 degrees outside. I would adjust. I always do. I needed to run as fast and as far as possible.
Sarah McLachlan: Time“Leave me be, I don't want to argue. I'd just get confused and I'd come all undone. If I agree, well, it's just to appease you ‘cause I don't remember what we're fighting for.”
Segue to “Living my Life”.
Los Lonely Boys: Living My Life“Lord, I feel fine, I haven't lost my mind. My heart's open wide and my eyes on the sky.”
I thought, for a short while last week that I might be losing my mind. I’ve never had such anxiety. Recognition is a gift in those situations. Knowing that a situation is out of control is the first step in regaining normalcy. My mind is fine, my situation has not been fine. Each day brought more peace and calm as I’ve taken steps toward claiming my SELF. This involved inspection of what strengths I bring to my personal relationships and my work, and looking at my goals for the future. Defining these goals, putting them into words and asking for what I need opened my heart even further, allowed me to risk more and made me less anxious.
David Bowie: Golden Years“I’ll stick with you baby for a thousand years. Nothings gonna touch you in these golden years.”
A thousand years is a very long time. This reminds me of condos in Florida, and golf courses, and growing old together, and I never used to think of this song this way, and damn! Just damn.
Outkast: Hey Ya“We get together. Oh, we get together but separate’s always better when there’s feelings involved.”
I chose this song for it’s popularity and it’s beat when I was teaching at the Y. Just the right beats per minute. I’ve always liked dancing to it in the clubs. The lyrics - I hadn’t really caught them completely until today. Ugh. I still like to throw a perfect roundhouse kick though. It’s good for that, but I…wow.
Smash Mouth - All Star“Hey now you're an All Star get your game on, go play.”
Saturday was a recovery day for me. Got myself up early and met a friend at the park for a lap around the park walking faster than I imagined we could while she pushed the stroller, then I ran another lap. I went to see a funny movie with another friend and laughed myself silly. Finally, I met two of the sweetest men I know to watch Ultimate Fighting at a place in the Village. I filled my day with people who know and love me and we did things I love to do. I even got to see a few of those roundhouse kicks. Bonus.
The Thrill is Gone - BB King…
I’m not even going to put any of those lyrics above. Let’s just say I was able to laugh a little about the cosmic humor in this song winding down my run. No tears. I love the blues when I’m in the right mood and Mr. King is The King of The Blues. So bring them. I can handle them.
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It's not a coincidence, and it's not planned either. It's changing your mind as it goes along. How cool is that?
ReplyDeleteNice train of consciousness here. Thank you for the glimpse into your head.