Daybreak Run - Breaking Dawn

Distance: 3 miles
Start time: 6:30 am
Run Duration: 31 minutes
Pace: 10.33 minutes/mile
Temperature: 81 degrees
Humidity: 80%
Location: Memorial Park, Houston, TX

I'm feeling a little better today. I went to bed at 9 last night, even after telling myself I'd try to stay awake later. I slept fitfully and I know I checked my clock at 3am but woke feeling pretty rested at 5:30 and made my way to the park. I still don't have the energy I'd like to, so I think I'll check in with my Physician next week and ask for his once-over just to make sure everything's ok. It's probably just a matter of stress but if there's one thing I've learned in my years in medicine, I don't want to let something get away from me if there is a correctable problem. I suppose it could be my nutrition, too. Although I'd like to eat a steak, I've cut so far back on red meat since seeing "Food, Inc." that I could possibly have a little anemia going on. In the last month I've had only one hamburger and that was a bland tasting grass-fed patty that wasn't worth going back for. Oh, wait...I DID have some bolognese sauce when I went out for Italian with friends, but that's it for beef in the last month.

As I was running today I went over my body systems in my head: No ankle swelling, no shortness of breath, peeing fine. That's the big 3. No weird rashes. Moving up to affect and mood, I decided that I'm not ready to tackle all that. That's not 100% true. I AM ready to tackle my mood. I'm just approaching it incrementally.

As a football fan I wonder if it's possible to tackle a little bit at a time. What's the point in that? If there is a big opponent does it do any good to make a series of small hits or is it better to just knock the hell out of him? I'm not sure if I have the oomph to crumple this situation of mine so I'm going to continue to do what I can - one day at a time.

I'm very excited to see my longtime friends, Lynn and Jack tomorrow. Today is Lynn's birthday so I'll go shopping today and find her something fabulous and surprising (like her). My car is ready to go. New tires, new transmission fluid and oil. I washed and vacuumed it and I swear I heard it gasp in pleasure as I wiped the windows clean.

I continue on my quest toward January. My life has been on hold for so long. I have no idea who will be with me, or where I will be. I have so many wonderful people in my life, people who treasure me and I treasure them. I know I will continue to train for the Half Marathon. I know I will continue to work toward happiness in my off-work time and happiness in my career. I have so many reasons for gratitude today. I lift up the gift of awareness and grace today and pray for blessings on those who support me in my search.