Friday, December 20, 2013

Deferred

"By completing these forms, you will be removed from competition for the 2014 races and offered a guaranteed space for the 2015 races. Please note that this action is final and you will not be able to reinstate your entry for the 2014 event."


Ok.  


I concede.   My right foot/ankle is the boss of me.  No amount of heart or willpower can overcome what's happening below my knee. But being out does not equate to being down.  

So I'm not running in this January's Houston Marathon.  Life goes on.

Stay tuned.  And thanks for your support.  

Tuesday, December 17, 2013

A Little Jogging and A Lot of Walking

3:50 pm
61 degrees
3.03 miles
40:40
13:25 pace

I moved because to sit seems to allow the stiffness to congeal.  Tomorrow will be another rest day. The decision is already decided.

Sunday, December 15, 2013

Another Finish, Another Shirt

30K  3:55:16  12.37 pace   6:30 am  36 degrees at start  Sugar Land Finish Line Sports sponsored the run.

I waivered.  I bitched and I moaned.  It turned out that I had an alarm set, so I rolled out of bed and rolled my car on out to Sugar Land to be in a parking spot at 5:30. 

Here's what this training and running is coming down to:  Can I do it?  Can I be sick, recovering from injury, seasonally/situationally depressed, fatigued as hell and still do it?

You bet I can.

Because my positive weighs about 1000X more than those negatives I listed above.

Prior to the race, it was pretty cold - make you shiver cold.  I knew restrooms at City Plaza would be unlocked, so I'd have time for my obsessive prerace bladder emptying and I headed for the brightly lit hallway under my old condo.  It turned out to be a comfortable place to wait.  It was filled with friendly runners and we hung out for about 30 minutes, chatting about training and just running in general.  It was a nice way to pass the time. 

I moved to the start line in time to hear the National Anthem and we were off.  After the first half mile, I strained my eyes to check my Garmin.  I was at an 11 minute pace.  Ha!  The start gets me every time.  I backed off.  My plan today was to run a mile and then walk a minute. 

I didn't stick with the plan.  I was just too tired and I was afraid If I started walking too much, I would give in to the fatigue.  My hip flexors were protesting by mile 8.  I was very aware of my deconditioning.  I walked a minute each 15 minutes. 

At about mile 12, a woman to my left asked me about her music.  Huh?  I couldn't hear her music.  It was a No Headphones race.  She had her phone on her left arm and was being very considerate, asking me if her tunes were bothering me.  They weren't but we fell into pace next to each other and started talking.  We finished the race out together, running through the entire thing, walking only to grab a cup of water at the two remaining hydration stations.  Melissa was a sweetie, really positive and funny. 

I feel like she pulled me in for the finish and I'm really grateful. 

That last mile, we were both feeling it.  We kept looking for those final turns and they seemed to be a long way down the road. 

Finally.  We got there.  Her family was waiting for her and her little girl joined her to cross the finish line. 

I looked for the photographer and threw up my arms in an uncharacteristic (for me) victory pose as I crossed.  I appreciate this medal and tech shirt a little more than I usually do. 

I have a baked potato in the oven and filet waits for my dinner.  I'm going to enjoy them tonight.  Happy Sunday, Everyone.  And thanks for the support.  I'm very appreciative of you.

©Michelle Scofield, December 13, 2013  All Rights Reserved

Tuesday, December 10, 2013

Baby Steps

30:31 
2.56 miles
4:00 pm
50 degrees
11:55 pace







Sunday, December 8, 2013

Forced Rest...Now What?

November 29 Wichita, KS 27 degrees 3.02 miles 37:10 12:18 pace

I had heel pain and knew I needed to back off. Back off I have.


Today: Hermann Park 41 degrees 1.78 miles 31:11 Walking for recuperation


I started to have a little, hacky cough on Thanksgiving day. Maybe I caught something on the plane? It would be the fastest moving virus ever heard of.

Anyway...

I ended up sick as a dog. A really, really sick dog.

I wasn't feeling too bad the Friday after Thanksgiving. Still just a little "ahem" kind of cough. No fever. I was able to keep things calm with cough drops and OTC meds. I even went to a movie with my family. Saturday we went to the art museum and I started fading. Fast.

By the time I boarded my plane on Sunday night, I was medicated to the gills (which, by the way felt like they were drowning). I struggled not to cough in my fellow passengers' airspace but I was so flushed and feverish I wasn't even thinking straight at that point. I emailed work and warned them that I would likely not be in the next day.

Since then, when I'm not working, I'm sleeping.

Until yesterday morning when I woke up and realized that my stomach didn't like my prescription medications. Joy. More sleep.

Today feels like I've turned a bit of a corner. I absolutely, positively couldn't sit in this chair, or on this couch, or lay upon this bed one more hour. I bundled up and took a walk in the park.

I've missed it.

I'm entered in a 30K race next Sunday. I'll pick up my race bib. I have no idea if I'll show up for the race. It seems like a lot to bite off at this point.

Everything seems like a lot to bite off at this point but movement felt pretty wonderful. Especially that fresh air. In and out. What a relief.

My only goal for the week is to not be in my head too much regarding worrying about the marathon in January. There isn't a whole lot I can do about it at this point...other than to push myself too hard, relapse, and end up an even sicker dog.

This all makes perfect sense. In black and white. I'll just keep writing, reading, saying it. Even in my sleep, if that's what it takes.




©Michelle Scofield, December 8, 2013 All Rights Reserved

Tuesday, November 19, 2013

Picking my Poison

5.04 miles. 1:02:05. 3:50pm. 70 degrees. 12:19pace


Lacing up the shoes after work was just one more difficult thing at the end of a long day full of difficult things. Dealing with myself if I didn't would be worse.

Days like this are all about the endpoint. I ran.

Sunday, November 17, 2013

Crockpot Ready Protein Post Run

13.1 miles 2:56:52 13:30 pace 7:00 am 75 degrees


I woke today with no pain so it was up and at 'em. By mile 9, I was aware of my right lower extremity. I'm not going to say I'm at a decision point regarding running the marathon in January. I'm not there yet. I finished the solo half marathon. I'm glad to be home. It was hot and humid as hell today. It wasn't a pleasant run. This isn't supposed to be easy. Or so I've heard.

I have a massage scheduled at noon and I plan to enjoy every moment of it.

Yesterday was a (for the most part) enjoyable day. I got a haircut. I took a spin in my own car with my car guy trying to find the funny noise it's making. We couldn't figure it out but he replaced the wiper blades and he's not a bad guy to hang out with. :)

I had dinner with a dear friend and we're trying to figure our way back to each other.

I'm post-run brunching on homemade crockpot blackeye peas made with:

dry black eye peas (about 2 cups)
salsa
3/4 cup of left over Pappasitos rice
about 3/4 cup of left over Pappisitos pico (onions/tomatos/cillantro)
1/2 cup chopped pancetta
water added throughout the day yesterday - just enough to keep them moistened.

No, it's not precise. None of my crockpot recipes are. It is, however, delicious!



©Michelle Scofield, November 17, 2013 All Rights Reserved

Thursday, November 14, 2013

DustBuster

4.06 miles. 49:28:18. 12:11 pace. 4:40 pm. 60 degrees


Increased work responsibilities. Increases patient load. Increased personal stress. Decreased quantity and quality of sleep.

I've been feeling sluggish. I skipped my run yesterday and took myself out to dinner. I felt a strong need to socialize. It seemed to be almost an imperative. If I didn't put on nice clothes and a smile and get OUT, I would crawl into bed with the covers over my head.

Today I needed to move again. I left my gym bag on the corner of my desk all day. It sat there, reminding me of my duty to myself.

The cool air was calming and restorative. I expect to sleep well tonight.

That's my plan. I'm a huge fan of a plans.

Saturday, November 9, 2013

30 mile week

15.09 miles 3:11:01 12:40 pace 8:30 am 60 degrees



I used the Nathan Hydration Belt for the first time today. On a long run. I was happy to have water with me and it worked great to carry Gu packs. (I only used one.) It was great to have my hands free. Here's the thing: My gut was distressed - which isn't unheard of for runners. I was relieved that my halfway point was the tennis center at Memorial Park. It seemed that carrying extra weight at my midsection was, um, stimulating.

We'll see.

I came home, showered, ate lunch, and slept for a couple of hours.

Now tomorrow is mine. That's a very good thing.




©Michelle Scofield, November 9, 2013 All Rights Reserved

Thursday, November 7, 2013

Beautiful Weather

4.02 48:04 11:57 pace 4:00 pm 66 degrees (shorts and a long sleeve tech shirt)


I ducked out at lunch today and grabbed a Subway sandwich. (Thank you to the transcription team for remembering PA week and sending me a Subway gift card via interoffice mail. Thoughtful gift!) The Subway is next door to a Starbucks. The smell of that yummy stuff wafted over to me and I resisted the urge. I've had exactly two and a half cups in the last month. I feel better for kicking the daily habit.

The cold front that moved into our area is big news today. It's supposed to get down into the 40's tonight and maybe into the 30's tomorrow night. It made for a great run this evening.

Anyway...back to Starbucks. At 11am, the temp was a balmy 68 degrees. For a little minute I thought I was in Seattle. 3 teens were huddled close together wearing felt jackets (one plaid), and wool caps. They were holding cups of coffee and seemed to be freezing. I stopped short of laughing out loud.

Texans.

And now I want to plan another trip to Seattle. :)

Happy Thursday.





©Michelle Scofield, November 7, 2013 All Rights Reserved

Wednesday, November 6, 2013

Missed a post

11/5/13. 4.02. 48:42. 12:07pace

(After) Working Out

7.04 miles. 1:24:30 12:00 pace. 3:45pm. 65degrees


There is a solution to every problem. By the time I drive home after work, it's getting so late that the tail end of a longish run puts me making my way home in the dark. Today I finished my last dictation, locked my office door, changed into my running gear, and headed out the door. The weather was great. It was a little weird being on the streets where I trained last year.

Sugar Land drivers still pay no attention to pedestrians in crosswalks.

Anyway...it's one solution to getting that midweek run accomplished.

I stopped at a drive through on the way home and brought a chef salad with turkey home. Yum!

(We had an office lunch today and I ordered grilled tuna. Yes, I'm THAT person...and I heard about it. Why do we have to hear about it?)

Happy Wednesday! The weekend is just around the corner.

M

Sunday, November 3, 2013

Bike Off!

14.03 miles 2:57:25 8:20am 50 degrees (heated up to over 60) 12:39 pace

Almeda to Binz to Montrose to Allen Parkway to Shepherd to Memorial Drive and back. Finished up with a run around Hermann Golf Course.

I feel kind of lucky to be home in one piece.

There has been a lot written about the way drivers of cars treat those who ride bikes in the Memorial Park area.

Today I witnessed (over and over) runners almost being clobbered by bike riders. It happened twice to me.

I understand that the street is not safe in the area for bikeriders. There have been serious injuries - even fatalities at Memorial. What I don't understand is why a few (not ALL - there were plenty of people riding responsibly) have taken to the sidewalks in such an aggressive and dangerous manner.

My running schedule is calling for longer and longer runs. The Bayou Trail is convenient, slightly hilly, and I'd like to continue to use it. I thought I'd use Memorial Drive and add the Memorial Loop for mileage. I'm not going to chance it. If my experience in just a one mile stretch of Memorial on a Sunday morning was any indication of what I can expect in that area, I'll pass. I'm no match for 2 wheels and a helmet flying down the sidewalk. In a matter of moments, my running days and possibly my career...crap, my life could be over. These thoughtless bullies can have the sidewalk. I'll stick to the trails.



©Michelle Scofield, November 3, 2013 All Rights Reserved

Thursday, October 31, 2013

Hard Shells, Soft Hearts

4.01 miles 51:06 12:47 pace 4:40pm 72 degrees


The sky seems to be finished with its mission to dump hard and heavy on Houston. I had planned a treadmill run this evening but, honestly, I detest treadmill runs. The bounceback is jarring to my spine. My drive to cover a different clinic today was eventful in that I could see only about 2 car lengths in front of me and I was on a major highway with traffic that insisted on moving along at 60plus miles per hour - until the rain came HARDER. That's when brakelights came on like Christmas at the mall. I pretty much white-knuckled it the whole way.

I needed this run. Outside.

Lucky for me, the sun is shining and I feel like my mood has changed for the better.

I ran up Hermann Drive, past the zoo and the golf course, and turned around when my Garmin told me I'd reached 2 miles. On the way back I noticed an ambulance parked in one of the big lots by the zoo. That's not unusual. With all the hospitals nearby, the teams will often bring in a transfer and then wait for a call, even catching a little snooze if they can. What was unusual was seeing a Tech out in the street, wearing gloves. "Crap", I thought. "What's going on?"

As I came closer, I saw that she was carrying a solid object onto the golf course. She set it down and walked back to her unit. What the hell?

As I neared the place where she set the object, I started to laugh. The ambulance crew saved a big ol' turtle's life. They had moved it out of the street and onto greener pastures.

I've known a lot of EMS workers. I've been an EMS worker. EMS is the rough and ready of medicine. Long hours, underpaid, often rough exteriors, ready to handle whatever is thrown at them and ask for more. Yeah, we would have done that but we wouldn't have wanted anyone to make a big deal out of it. I didn't say anything to them. But I saw it. You bet I did.

(The logo on their truck said "Best Care". Somehow I believe it.)








©Michelle Scofield, October 31, 2013 All Rights Reserved

Wednesday, October 30, 2013

Mind Games

7.02 miles 1:29:37 12:46 pace 5:30 pm 80 degrees

Didn't get home until after 8pm last night. I worked until almost 6 and by then traffic was at maximum suckage so I tended to some errands, knowing I wouldn't get a run in.

Tomorrow is forecast to be a rainout. Today almost was. It rained my entire drive home but I took a chance and headed out with my visor ready to shield me as best as possible.

As the darkness started to settle on the Museum District, I hoped that this run might give my brain a little break. I've had a tough couple of days and I'm on overdrive. I like pingpong but not when I'm the one being bounced around. I haven't slept more than 2 hours at a stretch. Unfortunately, most of my run-thinking was spent considering if I should give up on running the marathon in January. Commuting and finding time to run when it's not dark is becoming a real challenge. I'm going to shelve that discussion with myself for awhile. I'm grouchy and out of sorts. That's not the time to make decisions. Anyway. As I rounded into my last mile...

...a few solitary zombies (runners) shuffled through the puddles which were rapidly transforming into quicksand. Spanish Moss pulled the trees low along the trails and every chirp of every bird in every branch became a bat. I felt an adrenaline surge as darkness surrounded me and I picked up my pace, pushing toward home and realized I had to cross a small footbridge. I really, really, really hate bridges.

All in all, it was a kind of scary run. I was happy to get home.

Even if the rain doesn't come as hard as forecast tomorrow, I think I'll treadmill those 4 Halloween miles. I know the zoo will have an event tomorrow night and I just don't think I can take the fright.




©Michelle Scofield, October 30, 2013 All Rights Reserved

Sunday, October 27, 2013

Home Again, Home Again

Monday, Oct 21: 3 miles somewhere in the Gulf of Mexico on board the Carnival Magic. About 75 degrees. Windy as heck. Ran on concrete on deck 12.

Sunday, Oct 27: 9.06 miles 4pm 2:02:25 13:31 pace about 70 degrees.

As I type this, my monitor is rocking and swaying back and forth. At least that's the trick my brain is playing on me. I don't get sea sick but it takes a while for me to get my land legs back. As long as I'm moving I'm fine but sitting still doesn't make for feeling fantastic.

It was a good cruise. I escaped with my sister-in-law and we did a great job of chaise lounging. I evened out my tan. I got my chakras adjusted at the spa. (Our beach day at Cozumel was rained out, so we toughed it up and booked massages and facials.) I napped in the mornings. I napped in the afternoons.

We had the most lively and interesting dinner table, EVER!

I'd write more, but this rocking is not good.

It felt good to be running again this afternoon - after my nap.

It's nice to be home...but I'm already thinking about the next vacation. Happy Sunday!


©Michelle Scofield, October 27, 2013 All Rights Reserved

Friday, October 18, 2013

Be Happy

12.18 miles 2:30:48 12:23 pace 4:40 pm 70 degrees

I wore my compression knee socks today and my legs felt less fatigued while I ran. Also, my shoes felt less lead-like. I think I'll try to remember to wear them for my long runs from now on.

The weather has taken a sweet turn to coolish. And misty. It's a runner's paradise out there.

I stuck close to home because I knew I'd be finishing in the dark. I ran a little along Brays Bayou and then back through Hermann Park and a couple times around the Rice Trail. It was much darker than I was comfortable with coming along Braeswood on the Hermann path. (I sprinted my finish.)

I'm still not loving this running. It feels like a lot of work. It is a lot of work. Twelve miles at the end of the day at the end of the work week. Yeah.

Oh, and my left second toenail is threatening, threatening. I may start a pool to see when it actually gives way this year.

I'm not feeling a lot of positive. The political nightmare of the last two weeks really bummed me out. I'm going to take a break from the internet and from anything on television that smacks of politics. I'm liking pictures of babies, kittens, and puppies right now.

And cooking shows. LOVE cooking shows, even though I'm not all that into food (for me) right now. The Top Chef in New Orleans has me paying attention because my sweeties are in New Orleans (of course). And Master Chef Junior is adorable. The little kids try so hard and Gordon Ramsey helps them out and seems like a different guy with them. :)

So...if I'm not around, I'm filling my tank with delicious, happy, thoughts. I hope you have a few of those, too!

©Michelle Scofield, October 18, 2013 All Rights Reserved

Tuesday, October 15, 2013

Heroes

3.02 miles 37:39 12:28 pace 5:30 pm 84 degrees


I'm watching a story on the news about a 23 y/o man who collapsed while running in the very park where I run. He suffered cardiac arrest and a couple driving by (saw him and) stopped. They performed CPR until the paramedic squad arrived. The guy spent several days in the hospital and now has an implanted pacemaker/defibrillator. He lived because somebody knew what to do and did it.

Damn.

That's about a million kinds of awesome.





©Michelle Scofield, October 15, 2013 All Rights Reserved

Saturday, October 12, 2013

Saturday 11

11:02 miles 2:21:55 12:53 pace 6:45 am 75 degrees

Almeda to Hermann Drive to Montrose to Allen Parkway. Along the Bayou Bend Trail for awhile. Out and Back route.

Lots of friendly runners out this morning. I wore my bright green Houston Half and Relay shirt. It's fun to come across another runner wearing the same shirt. You kind of have to say "Hi!" and smile. :) I think I saw 4 others today.

The Bayou Bend Trail is good for me because it's got a lot of inclines and declines. It's part of the Houston Marathon course - the part where my language gets especially colorful.

I'm still waivering. I have no idea if I'll actually run the marathon. I've even considered setting up an appointment with a sports psychologist. I'm so freaking TIRED. My bloodwork was fine. My physical exam was fine. I just don't know.

I got counseling when the shit hit the fan last spring but maybe it's affecting me in this aspect of my life, too. Why not?

Anyway...

Here's something that happened today along Montrose. It was just barely dawn. (I left my place while it was still dark.) I was on the sidewalk and I approached a woman walking her dog. The dog was tiny. The woman was tiny. I hoped the woman could hear me. I didn't want to frighten her. She spun around when I was about 20 feet away. She was carrying a very big piece of wood - kind of like a club. Her voice was like gravel. "Hey! Good Morning! Let us move over. Humans have the right of way." And the little lady, her little dog, and her very big stick moved off the sidewalk as I passed by. I looked back over my shoulder and thanked her and wished her a good day. "No problem, sweetie! Now, keep running!" Something tells me for her there are no problems.







©Michelle Scofield, October 11, 2013 All Rights Reserved

Thursday, October 10, 2013

Extreme

3.07 miles 38:09 12:26 pace 5:30 pm 81 degrees

Extreme. That's what the weather guy says about the ragweed levels. I could have told you that. I've been achooing through the last 3 days. He said today is a tough one for runners - what with the rising temperature/humidity and the allergen levels. I think he should go as Captain Obvious for Halloween.

That's all I've got. I have to go find a Kleenex.

Happy Thursday.




©Michelle Scofield, October 10, 2013 All Rights Reserved

Wednesday, October 9, 2013

A Tick Toward Yes

6:03 miles 1:15:12 12:27 pace 5:30 pm 80 degrees


Subtle turn in my attitude. It's like my mood turned a corner and I found myself lacing up for the runs this week with pleasure, not dread. No streamers, no balloons. I didn't see fireworks. It just happened. I'll take it and I hope to keep it.





©Michelle Scofield, October 9, 2013 All Rights Reserved

Tuesday, October 8, 2013

Give me a "D"!

3.01 miles 35:58 11:57 pace 5:10pm 80 degrees

No, I didn't tank a test. In fact I passed a bunch of them. I went to my doctor and she ran a slew of labwork, trying to figure out the source of this fatigue and my leg cramps. No answers. I consider that a good thing. I'm going to continue to eat a balanced diet, rest when tired, and surround myself with positive people.

"D" is for Dance!

I decided to run with music this evening. Instead of shuffling through my library, I'm working through them in alphabetical order. (Unmedicated Obsessive Compulsive Disorder can be FUN, boys and girls!) I'm up to the D's. There are a lot of songs that have "dance" in the title and that means my run soundtrack was extra-kicky and happy.

I danced in the street and in the dark with David Bowie and Lady Gaga and I felt like a Dancing Queen with ABBA.

Then Prince came on with Darling Nikki, and well...you know.

That's a whole different kind of dancing.

I love me some old-school Prince.

M

©Michelle Scofield, October 8, 2013 All Rights Reserved

Saturday, October 5, 2013

Decision Decided

6.02 miles 1:16:59 12:47 pace 7:15 am 79 degrees

I'm dropping back to Hal Higdon's Novice 2 marathon training schedule. The Intermediate schedule was overwhelming me. My paid work (AKA: job) is draining enough. Add in the commute and I was resenting having to come home and run 3 nights a week and every Saturday and Sunday. I don't want to resent something which previously gave me a great deal of pleasure. I took a break for 2 nights this week, reset this morning and I feel good about this decision.

Hope you all have a wonderful weekend. I started mine off with a visit to the Greek Festival in Montrose with great friends. We came back to my place after and enjoyed yummy desserts and talked for awhile. I'm so fortunate to have such kind, understanding, and smart (!) people in my life. This evening, I'm attending a couple of art events. Again, many friends to see. Tomorrow...still to be decided.








©Michelle Scofield, October 5, 2013 All Rights Reserved

Tuesday, October 1, 2013

Ego Issues

3.01 miles 36:57 12:17 pace 5:00 pm 81 degrees


I waivered. Would I or wouldn't I? I did but it was tough. So this is my way of working through the toughness. Fear not, Dear Reader. It's just what I have to do. My keyboard is my Analyst. :)

I'm fighting...what? Allergies? The beginning of a cold? I felt pretty miserable this weekend with a runny nose and gobbled Benadryl like candy. That made me groggy and dry. I thought I was better yesterday but my eyes were itchy and uncomfortable this morning. (I stayed up too late last night watching C-Span and cursing at the impasse in our nation's capital.) Late this morning I started feeling a little tickle in my throat. There was some painting going on in my clinic. I tried to chalk it up to that. By 3 pm I was feeling pretty punk. I took my temperature and it was a perfect 98.6. I came home and was feeling better. I put on my running shoes.

My mood is less than sparkling. I've had to check my ego a couple times already this week. This life is about a million other things than being liked or being popular. At 53 years old, I can still get zapped by things that used to hurt me when I was 13.

It's good to remember that under the graying hair and the crow's feet lives that girl. She was extremely outspoken and didn't like to be seen as weak or vulnerable. She isolated herself and she didn't suffer fools - including herself. She was also less than unique. The world is full of grown up children. What else could we be?

Related to running, I'm dealing with: I'm. So. Slow.

This is not good for my training. Creeping up from below is a thought. "I can quit. I don't have to do this."

And living in the slime. Under that. "I'm not good enough."

The world is full of grown up children.





©Michelle Scofield, October 1, 2013 All Rights Reserved

Sunday, September 29, 2013

Last Run of The Week

5.04 miles 1:00:25 11:59 pace 7:15 am 81 degrees


The Hal Higdon Intermediate Marathon Training schedule suggests the long run take place on Sunday. I switched them out last week and this week due to weather last week and social plans this week. (I'm going to see "Priscilla, Queen of the Desert" tonight. Fun!) Higdon's Novice schedule gave me 4 running days a week, not 5. This is certainly a step up and I'm feeling it. I'm going to do my best not to put the long run on Saturday again. It was psychologically tough to get up and run this morning after yesterday's challenge.

I did it anyway.

I'm glad it's done. And now I'm going to go have some oatmeal, almond milk, and an orange.

Happy Sunday. I hope you enjoy yours as much as I'm planning on enjoying mine.

An evening at the theatre with 2 of my favorite guys and about a bazillion sequins. What more can a girl ask for?



©Michelle Scofield, September 29, 2013 All Rights Reserved

Saturday, September 28, 2013

Spin Through The Neighborhood

9.03 miles 2:00:55 13:23 pace 7:15 am 81 degrees

I thought it might take me 2 hours. This is the longest run for me since completing the Houston marathon last January. Yesterday, I mapped out my route and it felt daunting. I went to bed about 10:30 and hoped to sleep at least until after 6:00.

My internal alarm is set for 5:30. It works well. I'm not foolish enough to think I can run in my new neighborhood in the dark. I no longer live in the suburbs. I tried to go back to sleep, but nothing doing. I read for a little bit, then got up and ate half a bagel and drank a glass of water. Finally, my loft brightened with day breaking.

I made my way through the Museum District from Binz to Montrose then on to West Gray up to Shepherd back to Bissonette and down Montrose on the Rice trail. I crossed Main to Hermann Park, came around the golf course and made my way home.

Here's the thing about going through Montrose and River Oaks on a Saturday morning: Those neighborhoods are full of the aromas of bistros and donut shops.

Not to worry. I had my GU packet. Almost as good.

I had the other half of the bagel, took a shower, and a 2 hour nap.

I'm glad this run is out of the way. I have a 5 miler on the schedule for tomorrow.

Next week is not looking so tough. Runwise or workwise. Yay, me!





©Michelle Scofield, September 28, 2013 All Rights Reserved

Thursday, September 26, 2013

Future Thinking

3.02 miles 37:54 12:33 pace 5:15pm 94 degrees

Not wanting to dwell on current unpleasantness, I'm looking toward upcoming happiness.

I have a couple of art events to attend. I love that!

I've been scouring travel websites and daydreaming. Beach? City? Mountains?

Oh, the possibilities.

I'm also trying to decide on the next book to fall into after I finish "Under The Dome" by Stephen King. Reading is the perfect escape from reality for me. And it does a great job of sending me off to sleep.

And I have a marathon to run. In January. Woot!

Glass half full. Glass half full. I'm going to keep topping it off. To heck with those who try to spill it.

Happy Thursday.






©Michelle Scofield, September 26, 2013 All Rights Reserved

Wednesday, September 25, 2013

Wednesday Hotties

5.01 miles 1:05:20 13:02 pace 5:45 pm 93 degrees

Mother. Freaking. Hot.

There should be a dedicated elevator in my building for those of us who are post-exercise. I feel a little embarrassed when I'm riding with one of my neighbors and I'm wearing eau de sweat. Today I rode up with two very handsome, very European, very nicely dressed gentlemen. All I could do was smile and try not to drip.

On the mileage front, I'm right on track. Although I wasn't going to sign up for any sanctioned races, I'm feeling less than 100% motivated so I have a bib for a 30K run on December 15th. That fits in with my training schedule and to get out there and run that many miles in one day (unsupported) is asking a lot of me. It was 60 bucks but I'm not exactly out there spending tons of cash wining and dining lately.

Speaking of food. I'm craving fruit. Meat - not so much. I need to up my protein intake and I'm going to have to work on that. I had a few (6?) almonds when I got in from tonight's run. I'm drinking Gatorade on ice. I have no idea what I'll have for dinner.

Must plan better. (Yes, I have plenty of greek yogurt, almond milk, hummus. I'm really not hungry.) Scrambled eggs may be the winner tonight. Lots of veggies in the fridge. I know I can't exist on fruits and veg. I have a feeling the heat is what is knocking my appetite out.

What I'd give for a cool front.





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Tuesday, September 24, 2013

Tough Tuesday

5:30 pm 3.03 miles 37:26 12:26 pace 94 degrees

(Yesterday was cross-training. I worked abs with a yoga DVD here at home. No where near as much fun as taking a class but I'm feeling sore - in all the right places - today. It felt like a good workout and having taken so many yoga classes, I was able to follow the cues.)

Today's run was a bit of a letdown after the lovely weather this weekend. I felt like I was plodding along and had to fight myself to finish that 3rd mile and not call it quits after 2.

I've said it so many times. Anyone can do this. It's not physical. It's mental.

No day felt more so than today. And it was only 3 miles.

But I'm done and I'm sipping my gatorade.

Here's to you, my supporters. I appreciate your comments (and your private emails and texts). You're a big part of what keeps me going. Cheers!




©Michelle Scofield, September 24, 2013 All Rights Reserved

Sunday, September 22, 2013

Breathing Macy's

7:15 am 68 degrees 5:02 miles 1:02 12:21 pace

I've been waivering. Seeing the number of miles on the Hal Higdon Intermediate schedule versus the Novice II schedule was a shock. The difference is this additional 5 miles on the weekend. The weather report pushed me on over. I've been craving cooler weather.

I need to test myself - to push a little harder.

I was aware that there would be a building implosion downtown. The news said there wouldn't be a lot of dust. When I stepped onto Almeda, there was a moderate wind blowing from the north and I looked toward downtown. I saw a giant gray cloud rising in that area but it seemed to be fairly stationary. It didn't remain that way.

Today my route took me through the Hermann Park Golf course, past Miller Outdoor Theatre, around the Rice University Trail and back home - in one big circle. By the time I crossed Main Street, the air was filled with a fine grit and my eyes were burning. The dust cloud from what used to be Macy's had made it's way to the Med Center.

It's blown through now. This is just part of living in a big city and I'll happily take the bad along with the good.

I suppose I could have waited until a little later in the day to go for a run. But then I wouldn't have accomplished all this by noon:

laundry done
floors swept and mopped
turkey, veggie, and quinoa meatloaf baked and divided up for lunches next week
turkey spaghetti sauce simmering for dinner tonight
dishes washed and kitchen cleaned
blog entry about to be wrapped up

Happy Sunday.

(And Happy Birthday to my loving and awesome son. He's absolutely the best. Absolutely.)






©Michelle Scofield, September 22, 2013 All Rights Reserved

Saturday, September 21, 2013

Trucks

8.21 miles 1:46:00 9:10 am 72 degrees 12:55 pace

It rained (gently) the first 20 minutes of my run. I was prepared to face it and had decided to take most of it on pavement. My route today was: Almeda to Hermann, over to Binz/Bissonett, up to Ashby, across to the Rice trail. I ran around Rice, back to Bissonett, then over to Hermann Park, around the golf course, and home.

2 themes.

Puddles and Trucks.

I jumped over puddles. I ran around puddles. I did my best to avoid them. Some, I simply couldn't. Last night it rained like crazy in this neighborhood and it hasn't soaked in yet. The Rice path was a muddy mess.

I saw trucks I haven't noticed before. The one from Hotel Za Za that is a (what?) Hummer with longhorns on the front. I guess it's their limo. I think I'd take a cab. :)

I saw a double decker bus giving a tour of the museum district. It was a hop-on/hop-off number like they have by the thousands in London. I had no idea they were operating in Houston.

Some bubba had his pickup blocking the sidewalk in The Village. It was in front of one of those McMansions. Guess he hasn't gotten that far in his lessons about money buying class.

Rounding my last big curve at Hermann Park, I came upon a tree service truck spraying something from a massive tank onto standing water on the ground. I had a decision to make. The worker was gloved. I can't remember if he was masked. There was a little breeze. I was almost dead on my feet and if I turned around, I would add another mile to my run. I decided to sprint past him and hold my breath. A good way past him was an older couple with a little girl in a stroller. They were stopped and seemed to be discussing what to do. I stopped to talk to them. I told them I didn't know what he was spraying. They decided to turn around and go back the way they came. I'm really glad they did. Bone marrow is precious - as was their little girl. (Who knows if the stuff was hazardous to humans?)

Last truck. I arrived home and a food truck was parked in front of my place. The Waffle Truck. I stopped to talk to a couple of my neighbors who were sitting on the steps and enjoying lunch. It smelled wonderful. I happened to have my mini-credit card with me. (I carry it with me on long runs in case I need to stop and buy a bottle of water.) So...I had a waffle and chicken sandwich. Yummo!

I took a hot bath with epson salts. I took a nap.

And now, I'll see what else Saturday has to offer.

Happy Weekend!


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Thursday, September 19, 2013

Life's a Beach

3.33 Miles 42:21 12:45 pace 5:15 pm 84 degrees and raining


I was looking forward to this all day. I imagined the rain cooling my skin. I had my visor so I could wear my glasses. I'd already decided to wear my current running shoes. They would dry out and it's just not worth trying to deal with heel pain secondary to a shoe switch.

I headed across the street to the park. It seemed I had the place to myself. Almost. I came across 3 other runners, 1 guy walking his dog, and 2 crazy bike riders.

It wasn't ridiculously hot.

Here's the thing. Have you ever run on wet sand at the beach?

Yeah, it was like that. I sank in and pushed off on...

Every. Single. Step.

My butt began to ache after the first mile.

I zigged and zagged across the trail, tightroping on curbing when I couldn't hurdle-jump the biggest puddles.

Great workout.

Happy Thursday. Tomorrow is my rest day. Rest from running. I'm super-thrilled that it's the end of the work week. Super. Thrilled.

Super!

That's pretty darned thrilled.






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Wednesday, September 18, 2013

Rounded Up to Five

4.91 miles 5:30 pm 1:05 13:14 pace 90 degrees

Good grief! It's hot. I carried a bottle of water with me and I wanted to quit about a hundred times.

Today was another wildly busy day at work. The temptation was to pass on tonight's mileage. I'm really trying, here. Being on my feet from 7:30 to 4:00 (with a half hour break for lunch) makes me think, "You already exercised." Nah, not really.

I know these things:

The weather will break - someday.

The clinic schedule will let up. Maybe.

There's always the weekend.

Happy Wednesday.




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Tuesday, September 17, 2013

Here We Go!

3.01 miles 36:26 12:06 pace 91 degrees

My Hal Higdon Marathon Training has officially started. Last night was cross-training. Planks, kettle bells, pushups.

Today it's hot as hell but I needed to get out there. Missing the first run on the spreadsheet would have felt defeating. Currently, I'm not open to defeat.

No speed-racing with the temp and humidity as high as it is. I'm easing my way into this. My sincere desire is to get through this training without injury or illness.

Happy Tuesday! I'm looking forward to the rest of the week.








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Sunday, September 15, 2013

Happier Background Music

7:10am 75 degrees 4.02 miles 47:16 11:45 pace


One of the weather sites says 100% humidity. I thought that meant it was raining. I'm no meteorologist so I haven't a clue as to what's correct but, dang! It's humid! It also smells like someone's burning a wood pile out there. Or maybe there was a house fire. Whatever. I coughed and "ahem'd" my way through my morning run. I have an inhaler prescription for exercise-induced asthma. Today was the first time in a long time that I felt symptoms and thought about using it pre-run next time.

Excuse me while I go check the air quality on another site...

...The Texas Commission on Environmental Quality says it's all within the "Good" Range. Guess it's just the humidity.


Lately I'm finding myself in a bit of an excuse-making mode. Since completing last year's marathon and taking time off to recover, I honestly haven't wanted to run again. It's a drag. It's time-consuming. It hurts. I got so busy at work that I was overcome with fatigue and couldn't manage a run. My legs felt like lead. I put on 15 of the pounds that I dropped during marathon training. (It's no wonder my legs felt heavy!) I moved and it's not safe to run in my new neighborhood in the very early morning. It's been too hot to run in the evenings.

Here's the thing about running. For me.

I keep depression at bay with what I admit is sheer defiance. When I'm not running, I white knuckle my way through my days. Running not only gives me something to look forward to, I absolutely believe it raises my seratonin levels and acts as a natural antidepressant.

Training for the 2014 Houston Marathon begins next week. I'm feeling more positive about running and more excited about it. I know it's not going to be easy. Last year I didn't use music much while I ran but I tried it again yesterday and I was happy for the diversion. I think there has been so much negative out there pushing it's way into my head and I need to find a way to drown it out. I'll be checking out Itunes for kicky stuff to make me smile while I'm on the trails.

Yeah, yeah. The negative stuff needs to be dealt with. Maybe. Some of it. Some of it will never change. (Going back to my 12 steps again. They come in handy.) Running is for ME! Reworking someone else's garbage during my time, in my running shoes, doesn't seem to be productive or healthy.

I hereby declare this marathon training season mine. I don't need to solve the problems of work or world while I run. I'm going to do my very best to enjoy it.

There! I feel better already. Kind of. :)



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Saturday, September 14, 2013

Change Happens

3.11 36:34 11:45 pace 7:15 am 75 degrees

I woke up (I'm guessing) every 2 hours last night. It was a super-stressful week at work. A colleague I admire and respect professionally resigned and I'm sad and feeling a little adrift. Change is hard.

Even thought I'm tired as heck, I know exercise is just what I need. That, and a little time with friends. (I have a dinner set up for this evening.)

I feel better after my run.

I still miss my morning coffee. I think it's the ritual of it...I'd be sipping a cup right now, if I could. I'm not having palpitations now so I think I made the right choice.

Anyway...

Here's a picture of a pretty butterfly. It makes me happy. :)



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Sunday, September 8, 2013

Bzzzzz

7:00am 75degrees 2.6 miles 31.3 12:07 pace


It's not getting any cooler. Oh, the thermometer may say it's cooler but it doesn't feel like it. The grass in the park was covered with dew this morning and my fellow joggers and I were soaked with sweat as we made our way around the trail.

I alternated 5 minute run with 1 minute walk today.

Just when it was time to run, I'd notice a mosquito had landed on me. Guess when you're moving faster you're not such an easy target? I also had one in my mouth. In. My. Mouth. I didn't spit. I'm not THAT runner. But, c'mon! That's just disgusting.

So if you're headed outside, bug spray!


My Hal Higdon marathon training schedule starts September 16. Almost here.




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Saturday, September 7, 2013

Cuppa

7:15am 79degrees 3.02 miles 36:25 12:04 pace

This week, I put my money where my coffee cup was and took myself off caffeine. I knew I was risking a whopping migraine headache but I had to do it. I've been experiencing palpitations and they got my attention.

Over the last year my coffee habit has escalated from a cup in the morning to two in the morning, one after lunch, and sometimes one in the evening if I have plans to be out late. I kind of freaked out when my coffeemaker broke about six months ago and immediately bought another one - I mean that very day.

There may be another reason for my heart flutters. I've been relying on melatonin to help me sleep at night. It's been reported to cause palpitations. I ditched that, too.

I didn't feel any yesterday. If I notice them again, I'll make an appointment with my Physician.

I had the teensiest of headaches yesterday. No big deal. (I could have attributed it to the mountain of stress that was sitting on my shoulders regarding work.) The most noticable symptom of caffeine withdrawal is muscle stiffness. I can't seem to get comfortable. And, yes...I'm a little agitated.

I admit this.

It was a good idea to get out and run this morning. I wasn't up to a sprint. A little jog was just what I needed.

It feels like a new beginning. (The coffeemaker is going on the shelf - with the coffee. I'll save it for company.)




©Michelle Scofield, September 7, 2013 All Rights Reserved

Monday, September 2, 2013

Good Medicine

7.50 am. 77 degrees 2.27 miles. 36.55 minutes

I'm going to keep walking this line between avoiding injury and maintaining a healthy mental status. Best way I can see to do that is to meet and greet my fellow exercises with smiles and "good mornings". We're good for each other.

I just know it.


:)

Good morning!

Sunday, September 1, 2013

Holding Back and Other Rules to Go By

7:16am 75 degrees 2.32 miles 28:59 12:30 pace (ran a little, walked a little)

The ankle is feeling better. I'm aware I tweeked it a couple weeks ago. The swelling is gone. The entire ankle/heel complex is a bundle of confusion for me. I don't know what's what. I'm going slightly stir crazy so I knew I had to get out and move this morning. Missing outdoor cardio is not good for my brain chemistry.

Fresh air + sunshine + increased heart rate = increased saratonin levels.

My right knee has a point of tenderness medially. I'm not sure if it's patellar or deeper. It's nagging but it bothers me most when I'm inactive. I hope it's arthritic in nature. I hope. When hoping wears thin, I'll go to the Orthopedist.

Positives: The park was full of people out enjoying the relative coolness of the morning compared to the rest of what's forecast for the day. There were also plenty of squirrels and birds. A huge flock of pigeons landed in a tree as I passed by the statue of the General on his horse. I felt the dewdrops falling around me. I hope they were dew drops and not doo drops. One rule I've learned about jogging in the park.

Look forward, not up.


Oh, and Happy Birthday, Brett! Rule #1 and #1000 and #1,000,000! Tell those you love that you do. I love you.






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Saturday, August 24, 2013

Uphill

7:30am 79 degrees 2.04 miles 25:12 12:36 pace

That hill at Hermann Park has been calling to me since I moved back into the neighborhood. Today I stepped up. Tomorrow I'll feel it. I consider myself lucky to have such a fantastic playground across the street from me. I need to add dips on the benches, pushups, and pullups. I'm enthusiastic but not enough to add it all at once. My joints remind me how old they are, even if my brain doesn't. Intensity will make me stronger. It always does. In running or in life.

Happy Saturday.








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Saturday, August 17, 2013

Hazards in the Road

3.20miles 37:45 11:48 pace 7:20am 73degrees

The storm that blew through last night left scattered debris in the park. Trees are down. Golfers are navigating around wayward trashcans and benches. I was excited to be out there in the cool air. I'm not sure what I stepped on, if I stepped on anything. It may have been a twig or a clump of Spanish Moss. I may have been distracted by the view around me.

Whatever.

I rolled my ankle. Spectacularly. I almost fell but I didn't. I wheeled my arms and righted myself and then I started talking to myself. Out loud.

That always cracks me up. So I started laughing.

Are you following me? I'm running, I'm floundering around, I'm talking out loud and then I'm laughing. I'm not WITH anyone. There are people around me and I'm in a park where many, many junkies and schizophrenics reside.

Moving on.

That's what I decided to do. I moved on.

I tested out the ankle. It hurt like a mother but I could ambulate. I walked gingerly for a little minute, then I decided I could do more. I was less than half a mile into my run. There was no way I was going to waste a morning or beautiful weather. I sped up to a jog and finished my run.

I came home and elevated the foot and applied an ice pack. I don't see any discoloration. There may be some mild swelling, I'm not sure if I'm imagining that or not. It's slightly tender. I'll ice and elevate through the day.

I'm going to see a movie with a friend later but I'll take it easy for the most part.

I'm really glad I kept going. So many times in my life I've let a small hit stop me in my tracks. I believe that was my habit of living in fear rather than curiosity and developing confidence. I choose the motion option.

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Tuesday, August 13, 2013

Making Lemonwater out of Lemons and Water

4:30pm 97degrees 2.13 miles 27:43 13:01 pace


All I wanted to do today was move. It didn't have to be fast. It's dangerously hot so my goal was to get past 20 minutes without having to hail one of the passing Texas Medical Center ambulance crews for a defibrillator.

I jogged through the sunny patches and walked through the shade.

I'm a little sore from an excellent yoga class last night and I didn't want to come home from work and sit around and add to my soreness.

Day before yesterday, I rode the stationary bike for 30 minutes. (The bike display said I went 9 miles. I didn't move forward one inch.) I'm thrilled to have such a beautiful gym to use but I feel claustrophobic exercising indoors - even with the beautiful view of the park. Or maybe BECAUSE of the beautiful view of the park. I considered using a treadmill today but I simply had to be out there. It's a big draw for me. It's one of the reasons I moved to this place.

I'm sipping a glass of water with a big squeeze of lemon juice and a dash of salt. Yes, I forgot to buy Gatorade. And yes, it's basically the same thing. Surprise! It tastes pretty good. There are lots of recipes on the net for homemade sports drinks. Some add sugar or coconut water. Most have a base of water, citrus, and salt. I'll add something vitamin rich to my dinner tonight, too. I don't want to ask for trouble. I know the heat is nothing to play with but it's nice to have a park so close.


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Saturday, August 10, 2013

Trail of Metaphors - Shifting Sand

10:30am 84degrees 3.1miles 38:07 12:18 pace

I love this new place and rainy weekends. I'm sleeping so much better - and later. I guess my last place was more detrimental to my sleep pattern than I ever realized. After all, my windows faced a brick wall that overlooked a canyon that sent sound upwards, disrupting my attempts at rest. Now I'm lulled to sleep by the sound of wind up high and traffic far below. I'm in a city space full of white noise.

I woke this morning to thunder, followed soon thereafter by the foghorn blasts of the lightening warning at the golf course across the street. I would have to put off my run. I fixed a couple of eggs, and an English muffin. I waited and stepped out on my balcony to finish my coffee. A rainbow signaled to me that it was time to put on my shoes and aim for the break in the storm.

There were only a few people in the park and I stepped around puddles trying my best to keep my recently purchased shoes from being soaked. I was surprised at how difficult it was to keep my footing on the trail. I wasn't expecting the gravel to shift so much. I was prepared for the concrete to give me trouble. Slippery when wet and all. This morning's jog was like my week. I was able to navigate obvious hazards but I still ended up with muddy sneakers where I least expected it.

The last half mile was a little dicey. The dark clouds reappeared along with big booms of thunder. I can handle dirty shoes and wet clothes. Lightening strikes, not so much. The rain resumed almost as soon as I returned home.

My preferance would have been to veg on the couch this morning. I'm deadass tired after last week. Sitting leads to more sitting. My gratitude this morning is for:

That little break in the rain.

That stubborn part of me that says, "Get up! You haven't been broken yet, you're not going to break."

Those of you who give me encouragement, inspiration, and an occasional nudge.


You're my rainbows!!!

Thank you.

Love, love.










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Saturday, August 3, 2013

Weighed Down with Facts

7:10 am 75 degrees 2.89 miles 35.25 12:17 pace

Ran most of it, walked a small part of it. My legs feel heavy. It's been a rough week emotionally.

I do my best not to carry my work home.

It's not always easy.

(I woke this morning from a dream about a sick patient I can no longer help.)

I need to run more.

It's not easy. It's easier to fall into dinner and a chair after work.

(It's hot as hell and it takes planning and care to go for a run and remain any sort of hydrated.)

Fact. The less I run, the worse I feel.

Fact. The less I run, the harder it is to run.

Fact. When I run, for those thirty to how-ever-many-minutes, my brain goes on a splendorous free association journey and it's rarely at work. Look! A bluejay!

©Michelle Scofield, August 3, 2013 All Rights Reserved

Saturday, July 27, 2013

Saturday Check List

8:50am 3.02miles  34:30 minutes 11:25 pace  82 degrees and steamy.

I woke to the sound of rain against the glass wall of windows protected by my upstairs neighbor's balcony.  My loft faces south and in the month since I moved in, I've never seen a drop of rain on my windows.  I've been able to stand on my own balcony and enjoy thunderstorms. 

I wonder if the Gulf of Mexico is waking up.

After checking out the soaked park across the street, I crawled back into bed and tried to go back to sleep.  No luck.  Giving up, I read a little and then caught up on some email, blah, blah, blah.

The rain broke and I got in my 3 miles.  Friends, it's taking a lot to be out there when it's this freaking humid. 

I'm glad I kept my promise to myself.  I've been making a few of those lately.  They include: 

Getting my eyes checked.  Done.  I was worried that my difficulty in controlling my blood pressure might be causing some damage to the tiny vessels at the back of my eyes.  So far, the exam doesn't show that to be the case.  Yay!  I have a new prescription in hand and I'm going to try to find some new prescription sunglasses today.  I like the Oakley wraps an awful lot but I'm not going to spend a car payment.  We'll see...

Cook more at home and eat at restaurants less.  Done.  Houston has some great restaurant choices BUT after driving home in rush hour traffic, all I want to do is relax and enjoy a healthy meal.  My kitchen has super appliances and an excellent workspace.  I've got so many grocers to choose from.  Since moving back I've been to Trader Joes, Central Market, and Fresh Market.  On my lunch hour I can run into Krogers for staples.

Spend more time with friends.  Done.  Soul-filling done.

Schedule one massage a month.  Not done yet.


The commute gives me time to think and I guess that's where my latest list of to-do's has been developing.  Concrete goals mingle with ethereal ideas.  I'm not going out to eat as often, so should I put an extra hundred bucks in my retirement account each month or should I scrap the entire banking concept and put the money under my mattress?  I'm working longer hours and driving more.  Is a massage a physical need for a runner, a psychological need for an Oncology clinician, or am I just someone who loves a great backrub? 


 



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Saturday, July 20, 2013

Revise

4 miles  46:30  11:38 pace  8:30 am  78 degrees

No music or podcast this morning.  Nothing with me on the run but an ID band on one wrist, Garmin on the other, and key in my pocket.  The air is heavy enough.  I didn't want to carry anything.

I decided to cross over to the Rice University trail today.  It's crushed gravel (like Hermann Park).  There were many more people than at Hermann and the trail is only about 5 feet wide.  It's nicely shaded.  There are curb cuts and you have to be careful because there's quite a bit of car traffic going in and out of the university.  I'd forgotten how people walk 3 across and don't move over for oncoming walkers or runners.  (Can't we all just get along?)  Anyway...it's a little crowded and not as pleasant as Hermann Park or Memorial. I was also feeling a little cramping in my calves. In short, I wasn't enjoying myself.

I ran a mile on that path, then turned around and came back to Hermann and back home. I didn't eat breakfast before my run (I rarely do).  It's just so freaking humid out there and I'm sipping a 50/50 mix of water and G2 now.  I've got to plan my electrolytes or I'll get in trouble.  I'll have breakfast and cool off the rest of the morning at home.

More and more I find myself saying, "Yeah, this isn't fun.  I'm going home."  I hope it's a sign of maturity and not just getting old and grumpy.  Either way, it...is.

Happy Saturday.  M








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Sunday, July 14, 2013

Inspiration

3.2 miles 35.17 11.02 pace 8:30am 85 degrees




I slept in this morning. Yes, for some of us, after 6am is sleeping in. I woke to gray skies, gray mood and a deep desire to stay in bed with Steven King, toast and coffee. I knew it would be hot as hell with humidity to add to the discomfort. My joints are achy in the morning and I’m slow to move those first few steps. If I had a witness, he might call me “Old Woman”. I’m certain he would do so with a sweet smile on his face and would make it up to me later. (I like to daydream.)

I switched on my IPad, checked my email, and then checked Facebook. My son is running a race this morning. After reading his status update, I put on my shoes and I got my butt out the door.

January, 2010 started a roller coaster of emotion for our family. The losses have come fast, hard, and heavy. Through this Chris and I have found running to be a sanctuary of sanity. We’ve both felt our bodies ache but nowhere near the pain that’s hit our hearts.

I hope you had a fantastic run today, son. And I hope you had a lot of fun. You deserve that. I love you.



Mom



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Saturday, July 13, 2013

The London Chronicle

6:58am 2.76 miles 29:16 10:36 pace 75 degrees




Up at 5:30 this morning. Time to think while waiting for the sun to rise and then time to think while running. It’s been over a month since I returned from (so far) the trip of my lifetime – for many reasons. Since returning to Houston, I’ve hardly stopped to breathe. Until now. I don’t want to let this trip pass without taking the time to chronicle. My Blog is my diary.

Dear Diary,

My London trip changed my life. You know that. I’ll never forget parts of it but I’m afraid I might forget others. Please save this for me. Thanks, M

Nonstop from Houston to Heathrow on British Airways: Movies and television all the way. Meal service. Aisle seat. You bet!

I bought a roundtrip Heathrow Express ticket once I arrived at Heathrow. I’d do it again. What I’d do differently is NOT take a taxi from the train station to my hotel. I now know it’s not necessary but that day I was overcome by the enormity of the train station. I’d just arrived in Europe for the first time and all I wanted to do was get to my hotel.

Hyde Park: My stepping off point. I stayed at the Cumberland Hotel at Marble Arch. It was a great place to catch the Underground or a bus. Twice, I took long walks through the park. There are great walkways and bike paths. That first afternoon I had a strong desire to be outside and explore but felt disoriented. Give me a park and I’m usually ok. I walked to the Serpentine Café, bought a muffin and a cup of coffee and sat shivering in the cold and damp London weather. Smiling.

There was a Prêt a Manger on the corner, just steps from my hotel. The first full day I was in London, I decided that shop would be my way of surviving monetarily while I was on vacation. It worked pretty well for me. I had yogurt and fruit for breakfast, enjoyed tea and a light “something” at whatever museum I hit in the afternoon, and ate a reasonable dinner.

I purchased an Oyster Card for the week. It didn’t take long for me to figure out the Underground system. A couple of times I got off at a station in error and when I did, I just jumped back on a different train or took time to study the map. My biggest goof was thinking I’d take pictures of an “English Garden” at Covent Garden. Imagine London’s version of Bourbon Street in New Orleans. The worst part of my getting off at that stop wasn’t that there wasn’t a garden but that the tube exits consisted of four cramped elevators that took FOR.EV.ER to get to street level.

I fell in love with all the variety at the tube stations. Each had its own personality. The unifying factor was that all had gum stuck to advertising posters. Movie stars’ nostrils in each station sprouted chewed juicy fruit. When I saw one without chewing gum, it looked somehow naked.

The first time I ventured out was to the Victoria and Albert Museum. Oh -the furniture, the fashion. And my first introduction to afternoon tea. It became something I indulged in daily and I continue to do so now.

The Saturday I was there, I made the most of a sunny day. I walked around St. James Cathedral and then over the Millennium Bridge to Tate Modern. Before entering the museum, I veered left and walked through the Borough Market where I found a delicious curry vegetarian wrap and spent some time visiting with the woman who ran the stall, cooking such delicious food. I walked back to the museum and took time to wander through the collection.

May 29 was a bank holiday. I went to Buckingham Palace and waited for the changing of the guard that never happened. Luckily there was also a 10K race that day and I stood at the finish line. I was able to see Mo Farah win the race. I also watched some crazy guy at the start take off in a full suit of armor. He wasn’t 1 mile in when Mr. Farah finished.

One day I stumbled upon a rehearsal of the London Symphony at Trafalgar Square. I sat outside and soaked up the sunshine and the tunes. I didn’t feed the pigeons.

My first stop at the National Gallery was unplanned and unprepared. I stopped in one afternoon after what felt like hours of walking…kind of sort of lost. I wandered around for about 30 minutes and decided I had to come back with plans to spend more time. I’m so glad I did. My second trip gave me the opportunity to luxuriate in the expanse of centuries of visual splendor. A bonus was the Michael Landy exhibit “Saints Alive”. It was a simultaneously fascinating and disturbing take on religious legends. At the National Gallery, I found Rembrandt, Vermeer, and Caravaggio. I sought out Seurat and Pissarro. I wandered into a small room, a cavern of darkness, and came face to face with a da Vinci. There were no signs to point me to it. Nobody nudged me toward this thing of beauty. It was purely by accident that I found it. Stunning. And enough of a surprise to shock me out of my blissful ignorance and force me into picking up a guide at the entrance to the National Portrait Gallery, my next stop.

I wouldn’t have missed this for the world. I have a fascination with many things Tudor. King Henry VIII, his wives, his court, etc. Especially after spending a week in London, I was anxious to put faces to my imagination. There is so much history on the walls of the National Portrait Gallery. Not only is royalty a big part of it, icons of literature, science, mathematics, exploration, and popular culture are all personified. Another bonus exhibit: George Catlin’s American Indian Portraits was showing. I’ve heard about them for so many years. I’ve seen pictures of them in books. Seeing them in person was a thrill. The depth and colors were amazing.



Tours: I took a tour arranged with the help of the hotel concierge. I went to Bath and to Stonehenge. Bath is a lovely little town and I wish I’d seen more of it than the tourism portion. I can now say I’ve seen flying buttresses. The roman baths were quasi-interesting. Being out of the city of London was nice for a day. I also wish I’d taken a smaller tour (like a mini-bus) instead of a big ol’ tour bus. Being a single, I was stuck in the middle back seat and it wasn’t easy to see out of the windows. Next time I’ll know better. I ate at Jamie Oliver’s Italian restaurant but before I could eat, an elderly woman fell and likely fractured her arm. I did a little first aid there in the restaurant. She and her husband were very sweet. I found out how emergency medicine works (in that city anyway). The restaurant called her a taxi and they fixed the old guy a panini while they waited. Everybody seemed happy. Go figure. Oh, my meal? Wild rabbit, fresh pasta and lemon mascarpone. And a glass of red wine. And then I was happy.

From Bath it was back on the bus and on to Stonehenge. Worth the trip. Absolutely. There were hundreds of people there and it was the quietest place I’ve ever seen. To say mystery is to understate dramatically. Go. Well, go if you’re into quiet and meditation and wonder. Otherwise, probably skip it.

The Tower of London: I arrived early and was one of the first people in line for an admission ticket. This was one of the only places I had to pay for a restroom (also Victoria Coach Station). It pays to keep a few coins on hand. I was only planning to stay a couple of hours at the Tower. I was there for six. So much of the history I’ve loved to read and study is tangled up in the Tower. The crowds grew as the day wore on. It was raining that day. The Beefeater Tours don’t let you hold up umbrellas on their tours. Yeah, pretty wet by the end of the day.

Theatre: I bought my tickets online at seetickets.com. Worked like a charm. My seat for “Book of Mormon” at the Prince of Wales Theatre was in the upper balcony and was perfectly fine. The show was hilarious and filthy. I laughed until I cried. The theatre was beautiful. For “Once” at the Phoenix Theatre, I sat in the sixth row. I’d been given a tip to go onstage prior to the show and purchase a drink. I’m so glad I did. The musicians were fantastic. The show was fantastic. It was…fantastic. The main difference I found between London theatre and New York theatre was that I didn’t have to arrive nearly as early in London as New York. Taking the Underground made arriving so much easier than dealing with New York traffic.

And one more thing. My last night I met new friends by way of old friends. We had a wonderful dinner then went back to their flat for champagne. I was made to feel welcome. It was so very lovely. It was the perfect ending to a perfect week.

Did I forget something? Maybe. It’s been over a month since I returned from this trip of a lifetime. I set out to explore on my own. I’m writing this more for me than for you. It seems a lifetime of events have happened since I returned and I didn’t want to forget THAT while I deal with THIS. I hope this makes sense. I owe it to myself to remember how much I enjoyed this trip and that I shouldn’t wait decades to take another. The question is, to where?



©Michelle Scofield, July 13, 2013 All Rights Reserved

Sunday, July 7, 2013

Like Rain

8:30am  81 degrees  3.02 miles  35:36  11:48 pace 

Back to Hermann Park this morning.  To say I'm happy with this move is such an understatement but I'll say it again.  I'm happy.

Last night I met up with friends for a free concert at Miller Outdoor Theatre.  We sat on our blankets and enjoyed the music of the band War.  (A little research tells me that there have been a few disputes about who is War and what constitutes a band when the original members aren't still playing, etc, etc...)  Anyway...they still sounded like the War I remember as a kid.  And I mean as a kid, like 12.

Above all else, I am a fan of funk.

Laying on that blanket last night, the haze and smog of the city blocking out all but the most stubborn of stars, I was taken back to Riverside Park in Wichita, Kansas.  I can remember seeing big gatherings taking place.  Some families seemed to have all the fun.  There were lots of kids running around, several picnic tables pulled together, and music.  LOUD music.  It was like a magnet.  And I was always physically pulled in a wide arc away from those gatherings. Big crowds at Riverside Park in the late 60's could turn dangerous very quickly.  At least that was what I was told.  But that music...

And the bowling alley.  Crestview Lanes had a grill that wasn't a restaurant, it was a bar.  My mom was assistant manager at Crestview.  She was also a single mom.  Where do you think I spent many Friday and Saturday nights?  The music floated out of the grill onto the lanes and I practiced more than one dance move with other kids who had parents who seemed to live at the bowling alley. 

My earliest 8-track and vinyl collection wasn't sophistocated enough to rebel in the direction I would eventually land.  I had a lot of Elton John and Jim Croce. That's what a straight-A, responsible white girl did.  She bought what her friends bought. Then I moved across town and...
 
...I had a completely irresponsible neighbor named Walter.  He was a year older than me and he, in turn, had an even wilder, older sister.  Neither went to school on a regular basis.  Both spent hour upon hour in their basement in a haze of smoke and music.  And I loved hanging out at their house.  My perception was that their parents had given up any hopes of them graduating and were simply trying to keep them from getting arrested.  As long as they were home and not on the streets, anything was okay.  These two had all the food, drink, air conditioning, and music they wanted during summers off.  Their house was full of long-haired, pot-smoking, peace-loving deadbeats.  Peripherally, I was a fascinated hanger-on and they allowed it.

Jimi Hendrix, War, Deep Purple, David Bowie, Rufus, James Brown. 

Hours of the stuff.

Last night, thousands of people sat on a hill and the funk fell on us like rain we'd been thirsting for.  And we grooved together.

"The World is a Ghetto"

"Cisco Kid"

"Low Rider"

"Why Can't We Be Friends?"

Indeed. 




©Michelle Scofield, July 7, 2013 All Rights Reserved


Saturday, July 6, 2013

The Park

7:45am  82 degrees 3.27 miles  38:25  11:45 pace

  

No physical pain with my run this morning.

Much to see along the way.

The tiny train wasn't running yet.  The zoo isn't open until later this morning.  4 lady geese stood next to the tracks.  They seemed to be waiting for a ride.

Just past the fountains, an ancient man in white pants and belted robe silently practiced tai chi sending two massive red fans through swirls and sworls as a chiseled young man sat on a stone bench near him.  His head was bowed in what...meditation?  anguish?  sleep?  prayer?   

The Park People were rising from their nests.  I'm starting to recognize some of them.

I wonder if any of them can achieve real rest out there.  In the open. In this heat. 





©Michelle Scofield, July 6, 2013 All Rights Reserved


Thursday, July 4, 2013

Choices

7:20am  3.49 miles  38:29  11:02 pace  78degrees

I received no less than 4 email notices for 4th of July races.  I saved them for a few weeks but ultimately they were deleted.  It would be too hot.  I've spent a lot of money lately and I can run for free.  I would want to rest on my day off work in the middle of the week.  Reason after reason after reason.

I've been running/walking/stair climbing.  I ran on the treadmill Tuesday night because it's been too dangerously hot outside to be in the park and my eyes and lungs have been bothered by (I'm guessing?) high ozone levels in Houston.  (Possibly by a fire in my neighborhood Tuesday morning.  Could be.)  Anyway...I picked up some liquid tears and I'm feeling a lot better.

My stress levels were higher than the temperature as I went through American Heart Association Advanced Cardiac Life Support certification this week.  It's been several years since I had to memorize heart blocks and cardiac medication doses.  I was feeling old and memory-impaired.  I was worried.  Really, really worried.  Without ACLS certification my job would be on the line.  (This certification wasn't a requirement when I was hired and I thought ACLS was far behind me.)  I passed my course yesterday, stuck my card in my briefcase, drove home, and passed out on my couch for a 2 hour nap.  I woke long enough to fix a healthy dinner, watched some trash television and then collapsed in bed and slept through the night.

On waking this morning, I wanted nothing more than to go for a run. 

It wasn't too hot and I wasn't too tired.

I didn't miss driving to some crowded venue to fight for a parking spot and standing around on the asphalt - wishing I'd visited the port-a-potty one more time. 

I'm enjoying my cup of coffee, half a bagel, and peanut butter.

Happy Independence Day and here's to the freedom to make choices.






©Michelle Scofield, July 4, 2013 All Rights Reserved






Sunday, June 30, 2013

Dog Days

2.33 mile walk  36:27  15:39 pace  8am  81 degrees 

Walked today.  Slight heel pain at the start so I didn't push it.  The discomfort let up after awhile and now it's gone.  I'm thinking it's fibrous scarring at the achilles.  (It's shown up on previous MRI.)

MANY dog walkers out there today.  Tiny dogs, middle-sized dogs, big dogs, and REALLY BIG dogs.  All leashed.  All well behaved.  All with little doggie smiles.  The dogs, that is.  The owners? I'd say about half were smiling.  It's hot out there!

:)

Happy Sunday!

©Michelle Scofield, June 30, 2013 All Rights Reserved


Saturday, June 29, 2013

Not Yet

2.8 miles 32 m 53s   11:45 pace  7:20am  79 degrees



Every day and every night, I stand on this perch and I note this new bridge.  I lived in this neighborhood several years ago and the bridge wasn't there.  The bayou trail was an iffy area for me.  I never knew just how far I might go before the path would run out or if I'd be able to cross over to Where-I-Want-To-Be.

I tackled the trail a few times but it wasn't fun.  I never went as far as I wanted.  I always turned back.  I never enjoyed it.

I had no sense of distance.
Now I have a Garmin.  (Thanks to my wise son who gives me great running advice.)

I was impressively out of shape.
Now I have much improved respiratory stamina. (Thanks to a solid year of training.)

I lived in fear of failure.
Now I have confidence to try new things.  (I worked in surgery for years and I've accomplished racing goals.)  Oh, I also failed at efforts and I didn't die.  Failure, shmailure.

I was afraid of getting lost.  Lost.  That's my monster under the bed.
Those who know me know well know that I might as well be a 3 year old who's been blindfolded and spun around a few times. My world is one big Pin The Tail on the Donkey Game.  Fortunately, I've adapted to living with no internal compass by becoming very good at identifying and knowing my physical relationship to landmarks.

Today I indulged in a quiet and calm Saturday morning jog - no headphones.  Hermann Park was already full of others like me.  We were attempting to beat the heat.  We smiled and greeted each other on our ways.  I had plenty of energy as I came around the turn across from the new bridge.  I had a decision to make.  I could strike out and explore where that path took me.  I might add a few miles to my morning.  I looked to my left (my current course) and noted the welcoming shade formed by the trees overhanging the soft footpath.  To my right was cement and a whole lotta sunlight.

I stuck with the comfort of what's known.  I've had enough change lately.

That big, arched bridge beckons.  It's good to know it's there.  For another time.




©Michelle Scofield, June 29, 2013 All Rights Reserved




Friday, June 28, 2013

Unknown Origin

I took the afternoon off work to deal with business details that can't be handled on the weekend.  I tried to give myself plenty of time to make it home by 1pm and I still ended up sitting on the freeway for over half an hour.  Stuck.  Sitting in a snarl of traffic of unknown origin.  59 Highway was a crawling tangle for 30 minutes and then simply broke free.  Who knows why?

It was idiopathic.

There are so many details involved in a change of residence:  utilities to turn off and on, mail to forward, licenses and registrations to keep straight, etceteras to etcetera.

I think it's all taken care of.  I plugged away at it while the cable guy did what he needed to do.  The microwave guy never showed up.  That's ok.  I'm managing just fine with conventional culinary creation.  For now.

It will resolve when it resolves.

Between my phone calls and his phone calls, the cable guy and I had a nice conversation.  He's a hard-working man from Beaumont, TX.  We talked a little about a lot.  We both agreed that the United States is in a hella mess right now and it would be extra-sweet if people would just respect each other and treat their fellow humans as they'd like to be treated themselves.

Some things can't be negotiated. 

My personal possessions have been pared down by about half.  It was a huge undertaking.  I'm still making daily trips to Goodwill and the attendants at the collection site no longer act surprised when I pull up after work and pop my trunk to drop off a couple boxes. 

I think there's a book in here - in this experience. 

Who am I kidding?  A month and a half ago I was planning a trip to Europe as well as a trip to Oregon.  I knew I would be moving back to Houston.  Now I'm working through estrangement from my oldest child and I've made a massive adjustment in my lifestyle.

Of course there's a story there. 

The problem is...I still don't know what the story is.  I've been extremely busy just trying to live - to survive - while the story goes on around me.  Those who are closest to me have reached out and literally held me up and supported me while I've trudged through this.

I've done a few things for myself.  I've reached out to others in similar situations.  I've sought counseling. I've learned that most people keep these events secret.  They are embarrassed.  They become cloistered and no one knows what happened.  No one knows why they changed. 

No one knows.

I'm not asking for intervention, or even for help.  I just want you to know that it's happened.  And, yes.  I've changed.  But I'm moving through the pain and the slice to the heart. 

I'm here.  And I'm moving on.

Love, love. 




©Michelle Scofield, June 28, 2013 All Rights Reserved


Tuesday, April 23, 2013

Progress - or something along those lines.

3.02   10:57 pace   33:03 minutes   5:15 am

I sat in the endodontist's chair for another hour and a half yesterday afternoon.  At the end, she cheerily said, "Your root canal is done.  I want you to see your regular dentist within 2 weeks for the permanent filling, or a replacement crown, whichever he thinks is best."  I hope he thinks it's just a permanent filling.  I'm about at my limit of gutting this dental thing out. 

You know that old saying, "I'd rather have a root canal"? 

I'd rather have a head to toe MRI.  With the room on fire.  With ants nibbling at my elbows.  With Pearl Jam on the overhead sound system.  Loud.

Yeah, that's how I've come to feel about dental visits.

Me.  The one who flosses daily and brushes after every meal and at bedtime.

It's about control.  I know this.  When I'm in the dental chair, I can't see what's going on, I can't talk, I can't even control my own drool.  I'm myself imagined in 40 years. 

So, anyway.  I only have to have the work finished off and then I'm good for another 6 months.  Fingers crossed.

I spent a little time in counseling last week and discussed control issues.  I continue to give over that which is not mine.  It's been a good several days for that. 

Boston, Mass.

West, TX.

Life.

Have as good a day as life allows and you accept, my friends.  Much love to you.  M











©Michelle Scofield, April 23, 2013 All Rights Reserved




Saturday, April 20, 2013

Threads

9.02 miles   1:45:53   11:44 pace




This is going to be one of those, "She's thinking out loud things."  Bear with me.

It was super-nice of the bartender at Houston's to comp me my salad last night.  I dropped in after an event, thinking I'd grab something to eat and possibly a glass of wine.  I sipped my wine (Chardonnay?  What was I thinking?), making it last for an hour and still - no grilled chicken salad.  It was pleasant enough just hanging out and people-watching.  (A couple next to me was pretty hilarious.  She engaged me in conversation and we laughed about our love of Real Housewives television.)  Anyway...soon enough, Josh The Bartender realized I was probably starving and checked on progress from the kitchen.  What could have been an expensive, delicious salad turned out to be an expensive, free salad. 

The event?  Houston Modern Market at Winter Street.  I was invited to ogle the beautiful furniture and artwork.  I did.  I also met up with oodles of friends which always lifts my spirits.  I caught a fun fashion show featuring "Stop Staring" dresses, of which I've been a fan for a few years.

This is all distraction from the horrible news which has been playing out on every live-feed monitor within sight for the last few days.  Yesterday morning, I was met with less than enthusiasm when my frontal inhibition gave way to, "I'd rather not be watching when a cop is shot" as I declined to sit with the gang and view the manhunt unfold.  I can be such a Blurt sometimes.  (A Blurt is someone who tells it like it is and won't take it back.)

Last night I had a great conversation with a friend of a friend.  We'd just met.  I have no problem letting my Blurt out among this group of people.  Miles Davis has been credited with saying, "Fear no mistakes. There are none."  I doubt he was the first to say that.  The thing is, when I'm around some artists, I feel as if I'm around some of the most open, vulnerable, and welcoming people.  That allows me to be the same and some of the dialogue is simply fantastic.  Back to the conversation.  We talked about how we were moving on in the face of the latest tragedies and it was a continuum of moving on since 9/11.  We talked about the fears that we felt/feel and how we are attempting to stand up to them and also about standing up to outside pressures to isolate ourselves from perceived bogeymen.  What amazed me the most about this man was that he was born and raised in Boston.  His sense of grace was overwhelming.  And calming.  And reassuring.

So...moving on.  I'm in training for a Half Marathon.  I've entered a sanctioned 10K race that I'll run in 2 weeks.  The Green 6.2.  I'll drive over and pick up my packet today.  I'm not going to stop running in big races.  I wouldn't dream of it.

I'm more dedicated than ever to doing a great job at work.  I'm working on a huge project for Cancer Survivors and am waiting to hear if I've been granted a fellowship that will allow me to travel to Canada for further training.  Get it or not, the program will go on and I look forward to presenting much of my work to my colleagues soon. 

This is a fine, fine thread upon which we walk.  Some days I take a chance and I run along it's course which is stronger than I think and I'm surprised at how much latitude I'm given.

Being a witness to the breaks in the threads of others is something that shouldn't surprise me but it does.  Every time.  Our collective web was weakened this week.  As I ramble through this entry, perhaps being out last night wasn't so much distraction, but an attempt to build.  I'm not sure. 

That's the one thing I know with certainty today.  I'm not sure.  




©Michelle Scofield, April 20, 2013 All Rights Reserved




Tuesday, April 16, 2013

(This Life is ) Not Such a Solo Sport

3.12 miles   35.07   11:15 pace  5:30am


The run felt sorrowful and heavy. 

I felt alone.  I didn't see another runner on my route.

My gut tells me that there were (or will be) tens of thousands of runners lacing up today...

...because.



Others have said it more eloquently than can I.


I had to run.









©Michelle Scofield, April 16, 2013 All Rights Reserved




Tuesday, April 9, 2013

Moving

3.1 miles   33:11  10:42pace  5:30am  Humidity: Dripping

Upside?  Very little traffic this morning and there was a coolish breeze.  I'm still wiped out and didn't sleep great last night but I figured I'd get the run in while I had quasi-motivation to do so.  It will be a desk day (barring any inpatient consults) and sitting around doing paperwork doesn't exactly give me energy.  It makes me sore and grumpy.  Running prior to work is much more likely to improve my all-around physical and mental disposition than sitting around and thinking about an afternoon or evening run.

I'm thinking, thinking, thinking.  I need to find a new place to live.

If anyone knows of a wonderful inner loop townhome or house up for lease in Houston, shoot me a note.  I need some city life.  And a garage.  With a kitchen.  And built in friends who love art, dancing, and tequila - that wouldn't hurt one little bit.  





©Michelle Scofield, April 9, 2013 All Rights Reserved


Saturday, April 6, 2013

Tilted

This week has been a series of Quixotic moments.  Over and over again, I've donned my breastplate and helmet.  I've raised my sword.  So many windmills, so little time.

Where to begin?

I've been fighting a toothache for over a month.  I had a crown placed and it Just.Wasn't.Right.  Next I had trouble opening my mouth more than a centimeter between my front teeth.  (I didn't need to come from a head and neck surgery background to know this was all-kinds-of-not-good.)  Soon my cheek puffed up like one of these cartoon rodents that sings at Christmas. I called the dentist who took Xrays, reassured me, put me on antibiotics, etc, etc.  The swelling went down and I went on with my life which included running a 10K race in New Orleans the Saturday before Easter. (The tooth continued to feel Not.Quite.Right.)

I ran it at a 10:46 pace which was right at my goal of 1:06.  Super!  I felt good.  The race was a blast.  My son ran the same race and it was a fantastic experience to run in the same event.  We enjoyed red beans and rice, which is the perfect post race fuel.  I had a great time in New Orleans with the family there and before I knew it, the weekend was over and it was time to catch a flight home.

There was a little bit of a delay coming home because of weather in Houston and I heroically stepped in and made sure a woman got on board her flight to Argentina.  After it was all over, I realized that I raised enough of a commotion that there were only two possible outcomes:  She would make her flight.  I would get arrested.  Obviously, I didn't get arrested but it was a possibility that night.  I was entirely impractical in my demands that an international flight be stopped and locked doors be reopened.  How it happened, I'm not sure.  But it did.

Monday's workday was packed - super busy.  I kept pace but I was dragging on the inside.  I blamed it on flying, on running a race.  Exercise would help.  I took a long walk at lunch.  Instead of putting my feet up and resting, I would push my body.  Idealistic, much?

A family emergency occurred Wednesday and my response was to pack my bags, don my armor and charge down the highway.  I had no clear enemy.  There was no enemy and I had no idea who I was going to fight - or save.  I lowered my sword and put my weapons away, along with my ego.  (My ego is my mightiest enemy.)

Thursday I was experiencing sadness and my physical sensation of tiredness was verging on fatigue.  Another busy clinic day loomed in front of me.  My alarm was set for 4:45 (WTH?) so that I could get up and run.  That would help, right?  No.  I slept through the alarm.  But I ran after clinic.   3.07 miles at a 10:57 pace.  I felt good.  I felt sweaty, and cleansed.  It was just what I needed.  I went for dinner and a margarita with a friend that evening and crashed into bed.

And I woke with:  A swollen cheek and obvious signs of a dental abscess.

Yesterday I went through stage 1 of a root canal and - wait for it...

...an incision and drainage of the inside of my left cheek. 

I was offered nitrous but would Don Quixote take that?  Hell, no!

I was fine until the endodontist asked for the scalpel and that's when all my memories of ME holding a scalpel and working on the inside of other peoples' mouths came back to me.  OK.  One tear.  That's what I allowed myself.  That wouldn't rust my shield.

This morning I Googled, "Can I run with an active infection?"

I could.  I'm not going to.  I'm sitting here and writing this instead.  I'm going to take a nice hot bath and there is a Corvette show out on the plaza.  I'm going to enjoy the warm weather and sip on an iced coffee.  (Thanks, Liz and Joe, for that coffee card.  I love the gift!) 

Oh, one more thing.  I don't think Joe Darion would mind my paraphrase because there are hearts hurting and they know who they are:  I love you more than there are windmills in La Mancha.  The impossible dream is worth dreaming.  We just have to take care of ourselves while we dream it and as weary as our arms may be from reaching, we keep trying.  There will always be room for us - for you.   I love you.





©Michelle Scofield, Feb 6, 2013 All Rights Reserved